Miss HOME!!

Hmm.. 34 more days before i can return to Singapore!! Y is that kinda long.. Sitting in front of the computer today.. got so emotional and started crying ... juz hope that i am in Singapore now.. so bored here.. nothing much to do.. nothing much to eat.. nothing much to say..

Thanks goodness mama and jolin chatted with me for hours today.. if not, i think i will be really sianz.. with them, at least i wun feel so miserable.. Chatting with jolin about jasmine today... really worried about her.. it has been so long, since i last chatted with her on the phone.. though we emailed each other, but it is a very different feeling.. maybe the best is still i go back to Singapore.. Somehow she gave me a feeling that she is not very happy so i really hope to chat with her to follow up things in her life..

Jas b'dae is coming too.. but she doesnt seem very enthusiastic abt it.. wanted to plan a chalet and bbq with jolin for her.. but she rejected it.. hai... feel i am such a failure as a frenz manx.. she is my best frenz somemore... Hai..

Hmm.. today seems such a long day for me.. times is like crawling.. maybe i am somehow weird too .. when i had to do my outside interest, i complain and complain.. but right now.. nothing much to do and i am still COMPLAINING!! hahax...

Actually ar.. got a lot of lab work to plan and a lot of xmas cards to write.. but somehow i juz feel very lost.. dun wanna do anything like that.. feel like gg back to Singapore.. somehow feel that my life in Singapore is really different? a lot of activities, a lot of ppl around, a lot of things to do!!

Mama, really miss u alot wor.. thx for being such a great mama!! thx for waiting for me to go back.. i really hope that u will wait for me all the way, until i return to Sg for good... This makes me think abt PhD.. hai.. a bit sad that i may lose the opportunity of applying the PhD scholarship coz i wanna return to Singapore.. but i guess.. it is worth it.. For meh meh and mama, i think the best option is still returning to Singapore.. hanging on here may drift my relationships with wanna it to happen.. and also my best frenz etc.. i dun wanna have the chance to drift with them as well.. perhaps family and frenz are still more impt for me i guess. . Dunno la.. still got a long way to go and might not even get the scholarship..haha

34 more days to Singapore.. faster faster faster...